I was a dancer, and I had just gotten a divorce. I met this guy through a friend of a friend at work. We hadn’t been dating a long time, and I got pregnant. I knew it wasn’t the right time for me to be a mom again – I already had a four-year-old daughter. I made a spur-of-the-moment decision, and I had an abortion. I was only thinking of myself and how I could get out of the situation. I just wanted to make it all go away as fast as possible. I never thought about how I was hurting the baby.
Two months later, I got pregnant again. Same guy, but this time, I felt differently about it. I never knew I could get pregnant again so fast. Right away, I knew that I wanted to have the baby and put it up for adoption. I was really lucky because I had the support of my family. They never told me that I was a bad person; they were always there for me. I know a lot of people in my position get disowned.
When I was about six months pregnant, I started seriously looking at agencies. I had seen ads from couples in the classifieds about private adoption, but I wanted to know the people’s backgrounds. I wasn’t sure that private adoption was the right thing. Then, my mom said that maybe I should look in the phone book. I called eight places, and AAI was the first one to call me back. Rory called me back in about an hour, even though it was after hours when I called. One of the other places called back 2 days later, and the other places STILL haven’t called back.